I'm Angelie Ryah
In 53 years I have worked a slew of jobs, worn a bunch of hats, and learned a few things about path-finding. All of which have led me to this next chapter that I’ve launched into:
FULL-TIME MINISTRY AT THE US-MEXICO BORDER
I have relocated from St. Paul to San Diego with my one wild and precious life packed on my back to pour life into those on the front lines of ministry on both sides of the border.I believe that guiding spiritual leaders through the rough terrain of ministry will open up new paths and ways of being. I am convinced in every cell of my body that the inner person of a leader matters. Self-compassion directly feeds the reservoir of compassion he or she has for everyone else. I've lived that myself, and experienced it from others both for good and for bad. So have you. My desire to walk with leaders in a way that invites them to inner wholeness is with the conviction that only whole-hearted leaders can restore our broken world. Healed people heal people.And oh! Our world is crying out for healing.Already I have learned on this crazy adventure that I can't do it alone. I need you! I need you to join me in the work, the listening, the valleys and the mountaintops. My hope is that you will come with this spiritual trail guide (me!) to the borders of our countries and to our own selves. Let's blaze this trail together one day at a time. Read more about my journey.
Recovering engineer. Spiritual trail guide. Budding activist.
I'm glad my younger-me couldn't see ahead to what was coming, because she would have freaked out. Graduating from Purdue as an electrical engineer after internships with NASA and Eastman Kodak launched me into a career of clinical research focused on the big nasties: heart disease and cancer. It was exciting, meaningful work. As a defibrillator implant specialist, I literally helped raise the dead. What could be better?
But while I was proud of my promotions and certainly enjoyed my comfy paycheck, I was also exhausted, anxious, frenetic, and haunted by niggling fears. How long could I keep carrying more responsibilities, and more pressure? Wasn't it a red flag that rock climbing was the only thing intense enough to take my mind off my job for more than a few moments? Didn't I claim that God and my marriage were what I cherished most, yet my time spent with either had shriveled to occasional scraps. Even after trying to reduce my project load, I couldn't reduce the thunder in my head enough to ponder any of those questions, let alone hear God's voice about them. So I did the unthinkable:
I left. Cold turkey. No next job lined up. It was terrifying. And the best decision I ever made.
While the medical world will always hold fascination for me, the deeper thread is healing. If I could choose a super power, it would be to cure people of any sickness. My growing realization is that while physical health is vital, it is not the central disease in our world. That is much broader, complex, ubiquitous, and mystical: it is our disconnection from ourselves, from each other, from the earth, from God. It is primarily a spiritual wound. So instead of medical school, I went to seminary and pursued education in healing the soul. My passion to cure is now focused on broken hearts, depleted faith communities, and our toxic political system.It became increasingly clear that my work was not going to fit under the traditional church structure. But finding a fit outside those doors was difficult. I had grown pretty discouraged, when I stopped by my neighborhood coffee shop. I shamelessly eavesdropped on a juicy conversation about new ways of doing "church", neighborhood engagement, spiritual formation, creative leadership-- except for chocolate and wine, they were discussing all my favorite things! The lead dude happened to live just up my street from me, and introduced me to the wacky organization he worked for called Church Resource Ministries (CRM). The rest, as they say, is history. I had discovered my tribe! In CRM I met so many others who were passionate about healing the world and had not quite given up on the church as an important player. But oh there was work to do. Now: I just moved to San Diego from St. Paul, MN as part of the ReNew team within CRM. ReNew realizes that ministry leaders are often exhausted and isolated-- they pour heart and soul into those they serve, yet often don't receive the same level of care. Their training, good as it is, has not fully prepared them to navigate the rapids of pressures that come with ministry in our fluctuating culture.
How can faith leaders carry the wounded around them if they are running on empty themselves?
"Put on your own oxygen mask first" makes sense but where do you find a mask? ReNew serves up nourishing soul food to spiritual leaders hungry for replenishment. We help them tend to their own souls first so they can lead with courage and compassion. So many confide in us that they need someone to help them stay connected to God, just as they do for others. And when they are guided back to that intimate divine healing space, they recover their entrepreneurial passion for healing their broken communities.Why San Diego? Yeah, nobody asks that. It's obvious. But really, for years I have felt drawn, and then compelled, to live near the US-Mexico border. I crave immersion in another culture because I know how transforming it can be. My faith path has become what Richard Rohr calls "the spiritual descent" where solidarity with those on the margins reveals God like nothing else can. It's the home address Jesus gave us. I want to meet Jesus in the undocumented immigrant, the homeless, the trafficked. Life at the border will certainly challenge me, teach me, change me, and very likely break my heart wide open. But I happen to know someone in the healing business...
EDUCATION & TRAINING
BS Electrical Engineering, Purdue University 1988
Contemplative Leadership Certification, Shalem Institute for Spiritual Formation 2004
Master of Divinity/MFT, Bethel Seminary, 2007
Spiritual Direction Certification, North Park Seminary, 2013
Enneagram Coach Certification, Olive Branchways, 2015
Individual Spiritual Direction
Few people have a safe place where they can take off all their masks and explore who they are becoming. Growing into your next self can be a lonely if not scary path to find your way alone, especially if you're already overwhelmed and tired. Having a guide to listen to your soul with you can make all the difference, someone with a deep heart, wise ear, and personal experience with rough trails. As a trained spiritual director, I guide women and men to listen for the voice of the Divine (however understood) as well as their own. A spiritual director walks with you in your best and worst seasons, and can guide you towards reflective decision-making. In these sacred conversations you are helped to let your life speak, to go toward what fills you with gratitude, purpose and strength, and to gently shed what no longer fits who you are becoming. When might spiritual direction be helpful? Any time you want support to deepen your spirituality, and especially to bring a sacred lens:
Before, during, and after transitions like career, family, relationship, or location shifts.
When needing to make important decisions, and follow through.
When you feel burned out, a bit lost, wanting a change but unsure what that is.
Seasons of grief or loss.
When you wonder how God is moving in your life.
For greater self-understanding, compassion, and clarity.
I particularly enjoy working with anyone starting a new chapter, helping women strengthen their voice, and anyone deepening their leadership. Areas of expertise that I bring to my clients include:
Depression and grief work.
Integrating the physical and spiritual: the body, nature, a significant location.
Ancient and current contemplative practice.
Creating personal rituals to support healing, calm presence, celebration, and growth.
Spiritual direction is typically practiced one-on-one (in person or online), and is completely confidential. While therapy or coaching is more goal-oriented or focused on resolving a problem, spiritual direction brings a wide gentle lens on how God is moving in all of life.Sessions are 60-90 minutes and usually monthly.
Group Spiritual Direction
Another form of spiritual direction is in facilitated groups of 3-6 people. Typically one person shares a part of their journey while the others listen for the Sacred, then offer back a gentle question or observation. Turns are taken so that everyone both receives and offers direction. I was part of an ongoing group for over nine years-- and discovered it is quite different from individual direction. I enjoy facilitating group direction, which allows participants to be more present to themselves and others. I can also train a direction group to self-facilitate on their own.Sessions are 2-4 hours, monthly or bi-monthly.
$15/session per person to facilitate. Facilitation training is negotiable.
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